Born,Raised and wiLL Die a Bornean...

I left home on the 25th of August. today is the 1st of October. 2231hrs. It is approximately 36days since I have been out of the house,the town,the country.

I finally figured out the term "You will never appreciate what you have until you lose it"... Well,Its not like I've lost somebody or something. but its just that I haven't seen them/it in a while. I miss every single one of them .. I miss every single part of it...

I have friends and family all over the world.. who have been away from home for so Long...years ..decades......Now,if I may compare myself to them... I have only parted my bed for over a month(ONLY).... But I guess I am not as strong willed as the others....

A few days ago,me and my sister had a little karaoke session...I found myself in tears singing Dusun song called "Langad om upus ku" .. I know.Its weak and it portrays gay'ish'ness .. But I could not control myself when I sang the part where it says "Koihad oku sosongulun.." which translates to = I cried alone.... DAMN!

Yes. I love my hometown that much.... And here's something that I have written a long time ago... when I came to realized the fact that I can never be separated from the land that nurtured me from birth....

"My flesh was carved out of the mountains,the hills,
The river runs through my veins,
the mist represents my soul,
The win caress my soul,
the animals roams within me,
Barbaric as that may sound,
Poetic is what I see.

Away,Birds may fly,Away,Fish may swim,
But I shall never part my land,
For I would die without the sand calmly in my hand"

I love u,my land,my home.. my heart...